Monday, December 12, 2011

Random Ramblings


I've been thinking about this quote a lot lately. Nothing in life that is truly worth it, ever comes easily. I guess I get to learn this lesson the super hard way. I believe that family is everything. Truly, everything. I can't say it's not hard, loosing a baby (even two in my case) but knowing that I'll be able to see them again one day gives me hope. Although it's difficult now, it won't be in the hereafter and this will all seem like just a bad (really bad) dream. I believe that being a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints has truly given me an understanding about my life. I know that Heavenly Father is over all things. He called my Tay home early and for some reason known only to Him, he is calling this baby boy home early as well. I know it isn't to punish me. I didn't do anything wrong. There is just more to the workings of this world than I can even begin to understand. Our Father in Heaven knows what He is doing, there is a reason for all things and for now I just have to trust in Him and have the faith that it will all work out in the end. This life was given to me and it is but a brief moment in time. On a scale of forever, the 80 years or so I'll spend on earth hardly even register. It is but a blip on the map.

Yes, it's hard. Very hard. Some days are unbearable but knowing that I'll see my boys one day, that I'll have the chance to hold them and love them, helps to relieve the pain and heartache just a little bit. And every little bit helps.

Lucky for me, I'll have two perfect, beautiful baby boys and even a younger brother waiting for me on the other side. And I can't wait! All I have to do is behave myself- follow the commandments and live the gospel. Not easy... but definitely, DEFINITELY worth it.


grammaDawn said...

I believe everything your saying and can't wait for the day to see them as well. lovenstuff

grammaDawn said...

"you're" not "your" stupid me ;o(

neenerneener said...

i can't read through my tears....i'll have to re-read this later! i love you sister!!