Thursday, January 26, 2012
Looking at this photo churns such conflicting emotions within me. It makes me so excited to meet little Archer and see him with his brothers (and sister) and at the same time it breaks my heart. Will I have time to add him to this photo one day? I can already picture how I want it, but bringing it to fruition is my hope and desire. So many things are out of my control, and it is so frustrating! I feel so selfish when I pray at night, begging my Father in Heaven for time with Archer. I know that it isn't my call and that I should be grateful for whatever amount of time I get, no matter how little. But I can't help the desires of my heart, and I want time with my baby boy. Lots and lots of it - to be perfectly honest.