Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Gratitude Attitude

Lately I've been really noticing how my way of thinking is affecting my behavior on a daily basis, either for the positive or the negative. If I wake up thinking of all the things I have to be grateful for then usually my day turns out being really awesome (even though nothing has changed but my attitude)! My kids aren't as difficult to handle, the house work doesn't seem as tedious, I don't feel depressed... and on and on it goes. It's so great to begin my day with these uplifting thoughts. I still hurt, both physically and emotionally, but somehow it seems easier to bear. Sure, I'm running through Tylenol (and tissues) like a mad woman but I don't mind it as much anymore. Yeah, it sucks... but I'm still grateful for this opportunity I have to carry and bring life to a child with special needs. Who knows how long I'll get to have him with me, but every second of Archer's life will be celebrated and cherished forever. Who can say that about their own life?!
So, every morning after I've hit the snooze button two (okay five) times I lie in bed and think about all the Reasons why I'm Lucky:

-I have a husband who loves and supports me (even when he thinks I'm certifiably nuts)

-I have three beautiful, smart, healthy children who I adore

-I have an angel boy who watches over me and my family

-I have a comfortable home that keeps me warm and safe

-I have an amazing support system of family and friends

-I have passions that I am able to pursue

-I am able to be a stay-at-home mom

-I have the best Dad, Mom and sisters anyone could ever want

-I have food to eat, clothes to wear, eyes that see and ears that hear

and lately

-I've been given an opportunity for growth and learning

It's a weird thing to be thankful for, but truly I am so grateful for Archer and the lessons that he brings me. Yes, it's hard and yes, I would love it if things were different and Archer was a healthy baby. But I've learned that Heavenly Father does as He sees fit and there is a lesson to be learned in all of this. I think that slowly, I'm learning that lesson. Love, patience, understanding, positive thinking, cherishing moments, gratitude, importance of family. So many things I have learned, and I know that there are many more to come.

Tell me, what are you grateful for?


Melinda said...

I'm grateful for your example! You are truly a good person BreAnne! I think you're incredible strong, and I'm grateful you can share your journey with the rest of us, it helps me grow too! Still praying for you and your family.

Michelle said...

I too am thankful for your openess, and sharing of your situation. For your positive attidtude and all that you are teaching us, even the not so fun parts.

I am grateful for my family, and the things that I am learning and that Jeff is almost done with school! (Extremely excited about that one!)